Heartstopper

I mistake the rush for danger
Call the silence something wrong
If it does not leave a mark
I assume it does not belong
I learned my body young
How to brace before the fall
Anything that feels too steady
I do not feel at all

I keep my pulse on edge
Just to feel the beat

You walk in
I freeze
No warning
Just me
Nothing breaks
Nothing moves
My heart stops
On its own

Every high feels borrowed
Every calm feels staged
I trust the moment that scares me
More than anything that stays
I call it instinct
When my chest locks tight
I only know I am alive
When I am not alright

I do not wait for proof
I wait for the drop

You walk in
I freeze
No warning
Just me
Nothing breaks
Nothing moves
My heart stops
On its own

Maybe I trained myself
To hear alarms as need
Maybe peace feels empty
Because it asks nothing of me
I do not know how safe feels
Only how to brace
Truth hits faster than comfort
And leaves without a trace

You walk in
I freeze
Breath stalls
At my teeth
Nothing breaks
Nothing moves
My heart stops
On its own

The beat comes back
I do not rest
I wait for damage
In my chest