Jaded

I've been high, I've been low
Now I live in the afterglow
To shine, colors need a reason
But even sorrow's out of season

I stand so still inside my skin
Nothing ever gets in

Every spark feels second-hand
All the stars are grains of sand
Nothing hits the way it should
Wouldn't feel it even if I could
My heart's abbreviated
Don't you know I'm jaded?

Yeah, I'm jaded

I collect unfinished starts
Frame them up like modern art
Call it depth, call it restraint
It's just fear in drying paint

I stand so still inside my skin
Even good things can't get in

Every spark feels second-hand
All the stars are grains of sand
Nothing hits the way it should
Wouldn't feel it even if I could
My heart's abbreviated
Don't you know I'm jaded?

Yeah, I'm jaded

Something special passed me by
Wearing ordinary light
I think it said my name
I was busy staying contained

If the best day of my life
Came and left without a sign
Would I even recognize it
Or just call it Tuesday night?

I trained myself to never fall
Now I don't move at all

Every spark feels second-hand
All the stars are grains of sand
Nothing moves me like it should
I missed the moment when I could

I could watch the world end
Like a show I half-attend
I was touched by a heartstopper
And I didn't feel a thing

I've been high, I've been low
Now I live in the afterglow